Sunday, August 17, 2008
Is There Something Wrong With My Connection?
Warning: This is for journaling purposes, really I'm not throwing a pity party!
You know we live if a world with an amazing ability to communicate with others far and near. The phone is an amazing thing, and often times we use the phone for an analogy of prayer and communication with our Heavenly Father. The last few days I've began to wonder if there is something wrong with my connection, or if I'm stuck in the olden days of no call waiting so I'm simply just getting a busy signal. The only two things that I have been praying for... pleading for the last few days and weeks is that we stay healthy and that I can know and understand what to do for Stella and her reflux, colic, or what ever it is... well I haven't been to bed before 4 am the last 2 nights and before that I have been getting up 2-5 times a night with Stella, the poor thing just cries and is so miserable. Well today I took her in to kid care (insta care for kids they have pediatricians) because she is having such a hard time breathing and I have gotten everything out with the bulb I can and, that's right she is sick, she has a cold, as well as Molly. As I'm waking with Stella at all hours of the night I just sit and plead that I can get some sleep so that I can handle the two year old tantrums that I will have to deal with in the morning and throughout the day, there is always one crying. Don't get me wrong I would so rather do this than be pregnant really, but there are just sometimes I feel that I'm praying in a tunnel (you know that parallel of the phone) and My call is getting dropped. But then I remembered one of my favorite scriptures Eather 12:6 when it talks about how you will receive the witness after the trial of your faith. I know that my prayers are heard even though at 2 or 3 am I start to wonder, I know that he really hears me and that there is a reason for what is happening, even if it is just a big old piece of humble pie! Who knows maybe tonight will be better.