Sunday, August 17, 2008

Is There Something Wrong With My Connection?


Warning: This is for journaling purposes, really I'm not throwing a pity party!

You know we live if a world with an amazing ability to communicate with others far and near. The phone is an amazing thing, and often times we use the phone for an analogy of prayer and communication with our Heavenly Father. The last few days I've began to wonder if there is something wrong with my connection, or if I'm stuck in the olden days of no call waiting so I'm simply just getting a busy signal. The only two things that I have been praying for... pleading for the last few days and weeks is that we stay healthy and that I can know and understand what to do for Stella and her reflux, colic, or what ever it is... well I haven't been to bed before 4 am the last 2 nights and before that I have been getting up 2-5 times a night with Stella, the poor thing just cries and is so miserable. Well today I took her in to kid care (insta care for kids they have pediatricians) because she is having such a hard time breathing and I have gotten everything out with the bulb I can and, that's right she is sick, she has a cold, as well as Molly. As I'm waking with Stella at all hours of the night I just sit and plead that I can get some sleep so that I can handle the two year old tantrums that I will have to deal with in the morning and throughout the day, there is always one crying. Don't get me wrong I would so rather do this than be pregnant really, but there are just sometimes I feel that I'm praying in a tunnel (you know that parallel of the phone) and My call is getting dropped. But then I remembered one of my favorite scriptures Eather 12:6 when it talks about how you will receive the witness after the trial of your faith. I know that my prayers are heard even though at 2 or 3 am I start to wonder, I know that he really hears me and that there is a reason for what is happening, even if it is just a big old piece of humble pie! Who knows maybe tonight will be better.

5 comments:

The Wyler Family said...

okay, i totally hear you on all of this (minus having to deal with a 2 year old in addition to the baby... i don't know how you do it)! i can't tell you how many nights i felt like i was praying all night long for just a little relief. it did get better, just not on my time schedule. hang in there! you are incredible!

jacksonx03 said...

Oh, I feel for you. There is nothing harder than to deal with a sick baby and it only makes it worse not knowing how to help them or what is exactly wrong with them. I hope things get better, let me know if I can come take Molly for a few hours so you can maybe catch a cat-nap. Ivy would love it!

Amy J.

Hendricks Family said...

Oh, I want to give you a hug and come hold your baby and let Molly play with Joci so you can sleep. I am so sorry. We used one thing for Joci's colic and it was amazing. After the first night Lane asked me if I had drugged our baby she sleep so good. I used these little pills that dissolve in the babies mouth. It's called Hyland's. Here is a link http://www.hylands.com/products/colic.php so you know what your looking for. Walmart should have them, but they are in the baby section not the pharmacy section. You give Stella (if I remember right) 2 tablets every 15 minutes for up to so many hours. Seriously, amazing! Go get some or call some one to get you some.

The Stevens said...

I am so with you on all of this. I remember Jetta having the worst collic/reflux/screaming ever. She would scream all day and nights were awful! Henry was 2 and very much in the 2 year old tantrum thing. I am sooooooooooo sorry!!! If we were in Utah I would so come and help you! Let me know what I can do if there is anything I can do. I also know that Heavenly Father is hearing you! Maybe you can't see how the help or answers are coming now but I am sure you will see it and be amazed that you got through this difficult time. Maybe having this sickness now will bust their immune system to keep them from getting a worse one later? Silly thought but just a thought. :-) Good luck and keep with it! You are amazing!

Brooke said...

I had no idea Stella was giving you a run for your money. Poor babies... Please let me know if I can do anything for you. My twinners babies are all colicky for the first - months, but someone told her about gripe water. I don't know enough about it but I know you can pick it up like at a whole foods market etc. Look into it and hang in there!! xoxo